a fight

last few days i packed up my room..
read some letters with a friend years ago..
in the letter she said i was too much about talking the past..i must change it for my own good..
that time,i think i was just in Form One..

why i mention about that?
well..it seems that the cycle is still running well n yea,out of my control..
remembering the memorable date isn't a right thing to do..
u see..the clock is still running,sun rise n set,calendar getting thinner n thinner..
soon the day n date arrived..so what?
sometimes it means nothing at all..
the memories over these 18 years..the reality about life,friendship,responsibility,family love..
yea it shouldn't be any big problem..everyone has to pass through this..
but why i still feel that it's a..burden perhaps?at least for me..
argh speechless to describe about the feeling..

be honest to myself,said my heart..
don't too honest to myself,said my brain..
be honest to the others,said my heart..
don't too honest to others,said my brain..
yea it's all depend on the fight made by our heart n brain..
oh what am i crapping about?!
just wondering..which of them won last night..as i can see there was a serious battle..
or perhaps..win-win situation or lose-lose situation?
ok i know nobody understand what am i saying..so do i..
fine..i will stop it!!!

i have finally received the offer letter from UM..
busying prepare for the coming challenge..
c'on we can do it~~